自分のことばかり Only thinking about myself

I talk a lot about myself, but I also pay attention to other people and my surroundings, working all day, which can be quite challenging. If I don’t take the time to relax, I find myself in a state where I can’t relax at all, and it can be overwhelming.

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Despite that, I tend to categorize people who only talk about themselves or ramble on about meaningless things as individuals I have difficulty with. However, I’m an adult, so I’ve developed quite a bit of skill in dealing with them. I can respond and even figure out what will make them feel good. You might wonder why I’m treating them like customers, but it’s because I feel like I’m becoming a business myself; I need many words to market myself.

So there are times when I just want to say, “I don’t want to talk!! I want to disappear!!” This has been true for a long time. The only places I can truly relax are in small, enclosed spaces, like a car or a restroom.

So tiny!!

However, I think many people feel the same way. It’s not bad at all. Whether to share such personal matters is entirely up to oneself. But if you’re going to talk about such personal things, you should definitely have good communication skills. And communication skills aren’t just about talking. I’ve learned this through personal experiences, books, and various other sources. I often find that people who are good listeners have high communication skills. Those who are quiet but listen to others tend to have the best communication skills.

When you’re focused on what others are doing or saying, rather than sharing your perspective, you’re not really starting a conversation. There’s a significant difference between conversations that are just going nowhere and those that are genuinely meaningful.

Of course, there are various kinds of people, and I understand my opinions may be controversial.

I find that I can only engage in casual conversations; it’s not like I’m in a rush or anything. That’s why I speak this way. Ideally, I should communicate in a sharper manner, but that’s not my style. When I encounter aggressive people, I often think, “You and I will both be gone from this world one day.” That’s what I feel inside^ - ^. Scary, right?^ - ^

I am me, and you are you. I always keep this in mind.

By the way, who am I trying to please with what I’m doing? This blog has been enjoyable, and I’m grateful that I can write without following anyone. I don’t need to be liked by anyone. I’m simply living my life.

If someone has taken the time to read this, I appreciate it. Thank you for reading!

ChatGPT

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My relative is currently in Paris, France, working as a sommelier. Since I had been using this to study for the exam, they suggested I give it a try, and I’ve been playing around with it a bit. It’s been enjoyable, as I’ve learned a lot of general information, and the conversation flows smoothly, making it very natural to read.

I can read through it as easily as I would a book, which is great. Until now, I’ve felt pretty stagnant (when I say “stagnant”). Self-expression has been really difficult for me, but organizing my thoughts here makes me feel like I can express myself better, which is quite uplifting.

Thank you so much for the recommendation! I should tell the person directly, but they’re busy being a journalist. Maybe when they come back next year, we can meet and talk in person^ - ^.

By the way, I’ve recently experienced some changes at work, and I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and exhausted. I’m so busy just trying to eat that it’s hard to focus on anything else. When the environment changes, I find I have to approach things differently than before, and there’s a lot to think about, which can delay my ability to organize my thoughts, making it a bit challenging.

It’s tiring when I want to work at my own pace, but instead, I find myself adapting to others’ rhythms. So, I haven’t been able to paint my next piece yet, but I will when I can.

When I can’t paint, I can’t paint^ - ^. I’ll take it slow!